As we celebrate Eid Ul-FitrHey my Am.
How are you? Where are you?
Is it just me, or you're really hiding from all of us?
I don't know what happen to you.
I don't know how your new life's been treating you.
I don't know if everything's okay.
Because I've never heard from you since last month.
The only thing I know is that you are in deep regret.
The only thing you wish every night is to be able to turn back time, which is impossible.
You've done the wrong thing, you've made the wrong move.
But maybe... you've made the right decision. Based on the wrong reasons.
I just hope that everything's on the right track.
I hope you could say "Yes" when I ask "Are you happy?"
But if you're not happy, tell me why. Let it all out.
Because you know I will always be there for you to listen.
And you can't lie to me, darling.
You can't lie to me.
Love,
D
Aah, finally a weekend! This week feels like a very long week. But I loovee it. As I said before, I finally got a part-time job, at Michel's Patisserie, a cake and coffee shop. It's been fun working there, I don't feel tired and bored even though I'd been working for 30+ hours this week. Cakes have always been my passion and working with it everyday just makes me feel like finding my soulmate. Haha lebay.
Yeah anyway. I have to tell you one little fact that keeps bugging me: Am 21 but I look like 16. It didn't really bother me at the first place. But now that I try to be noticed as a woman, the way I look starts to be a burden for me. Why do I look so young? Is it because I'm tiny? Or the way I dress? Or my attitude?
Well, maybe I should start smoking or drinking alcohol, and take a 4-hour sleep everyday to create an eye-bag and dark circle around my eyes. Should I?
It's been a long time since the last time I posted my daily-life. Not much updates, except that I got a part time job. Yippie! Alhamdulilllah I finally have something to do during the day. This new workplace is really nice. The people are ah-ma-zziing, the tasks is not stressfull at all, the place was clean, and I don't required to do the cleaning or any other dirty stuff. Its fun!
By the way, I've just came to realize that Afgan got a great voice. Haha. I hate to admit it, but he really sounds like native singer when he sing You Give Me Something and Ordinary People. Just listen to the way he sing it and don't look at his face, because his voice sounds like a 'real man', while in reality he's just too... cute. Sorry.. Hehe.
I'm sleepy now. I woke up at 5.45am this morning to start working at 7. And it's all worth it :)
Sekarang udah nggak mellow lagi dong. Jadi hari jumat malem itu kita surprisin Teguh, ulang thn dia yang ke 23 apa 24 gitu (lupa). Surprisin nya di rumah Rina. Abis itu hari Sabtunya diajak Wendy jalan2 ke city :)
Akhirnya boy, setelah sekian lama nggak jalan-jalan... Seneng bener rasanya bisa liat Dotti, Basement, dan beli bubble tea *norak*. Kebetulan gw lagi nggak puasa. Pulang dari city, gw cepet2 masak (sambil maksa2 Wendy ntn Cloverfield) buat buka puasa sore nya. Gw bikin Brocoli Saus Jamur, hehe katanya sih enak.. Jadi acara buka puasanya itu diadain sama The Muchos Nachos, di Hillview Terrace. Abis masak, cepet2 mandi, jam 5.45 dijemput superboii, langsung capcuuss.
Lumayan sih seru juga banyak yang dateng, walaupun nggak semuanya gw kenal. Eeh terus ketemu Windy disana. Hahaha. Gw sempet message2an dan sms-an soalnya dia waktu itu nanya2 sekolah di Perth gimana dll, tp blm pernah ketemu langsung. Taunya kemaren malah nggak disengaja kenalan disana.
Hari minggu gw pun nggak kemana2. Ke chemist bentar deng beli pem****t, trus jajan chiki di toko korea. Malemnya superboii dateng, seperti biasa DVD night. Lalu hari ini gw sama Wendy ke Career Fair di Curtin. Nggak ada apa2 disana. Tempatnya kecil, company2 nya dikit banget dan hampir semuanya (98%) perusahaan oil, gas, mining, hospital. Accounting cuma ada 1. Sales and Marketing hampir nggak ada sama sekali. Adanya cuma recruitment agent aja yang nyari Marketing graduate.
Gw sama Wendy nggak lama sih disitu, cuma 15 menitan lah. Abis itu kita ke main cafe, janjian lunch sama Adi. End up nya cuma gw doang yang makan sih. Beli salmon sushi sama wedges with gravy. Asin banget boy gravy nya! Wendy udh makan duluan di tmpt kerja, Adi udh makan duluan sebelom kelas. Trus kita bergosip lah yaa.. Haa kangen banget deh. Udah lama nggak ngobrol seru2an gitu.
Curtin sepi banget. Gw sama Wendy sampe kaget. Baru beberapa bulan kita lulus, kok perubahannya udh banyak banget. Bukan perubahan dalam hal fasilitas baru lho. Tapi perubahan students nya. Kayaknya sekarang ini berkurang sekitar 40% deh. Trus semuanya tampang2 first year gitu, apa hari ini anak2 2nd year nya pada sibuk assignment ya? Pokonya uni tadi serasa highschool lah..
Nanti malem Ayu mau nginep sini. Sebelum tidur sih rencananya kita mau maraton ntn Gossip Girl Season 1 dulu. Hehe. Lalu besok kita mau drop2 resume di city. Sekalian ke immigration, mau nanya soal Bridging Visa gw yang nggak jelas nasibnya. Intinya beberapa hari ini gw happy lah, udah nggak kesepian lagi :D
Udah 3 minggu gw begini terus. Mostly di rumah nggak ngapa2in selain nyari kerja lewat internet. Minggu lalu masih mending. Gw masih sempet buka puasa bareng Gandes, Velly, Fyke. Trus sempet latenite juga. Minggu ini bener-bener gw seharian di kamar terus. Kecuali kalo buka puasa baru ke dapur. Rekreasi gw cuma ke Woolworths.
Sebenernya masalah utamanya bukan urusan nggak dapet2 kerja. Masalahnya gw kesepian banget. Dunia gw isinya cuma di dlm kamar ditemenin laptop. Sekalinya pergi, ke Woolworths. Dan dapur. Gw bener-bener stress banget rasanya. Bahkan temen ngobrol dan bercanda pun gw nggak punya.. Sumpah, hidup kayak gini rasanya nggak enak banget.
Pengen for good aja balik indo.
