Worthy Of

I love love this song by Justin Timberlake.. Love the melody and the lyrics too.. Enjoy!

Girl I find you so amazing
With everyday I learn more about you
The way that you work day out and day in
And still find time for us too

I love the fact that you're there for me when I feel down
No matter what I'm going through
Lately I've been questioning myself
Am I good enough for you?

Am I worthy of?
Am I man enough?
Am I strong enough?
To maintain this love
You've got me questioning
Got me wondering
Could I be that man?
That can keep you happy..

I know that there'll times when I'll be miles away
And you'll be all alone
I constantly fight my insecurities
When I can't reach you by phone

And, oh Lord knows that I'm only human
So please forgive me if I ask many silly questions
I know that you trully love me but
Fear has me second guessing

Girl excuse my ways
I'm not trying to push your love away
Its just that sometimes my imagination gets the best of me
I still love you baby everyday

Less Sleep More Sleep ;P

wew, mulai deh insomnia gw kambuh lagee. ceritanya kan sekarang lagi puasa ya, sedangkan gw kalo tidur jam 11 atau 12an biasanya nggak kebangun tuh jam2 3an pas waktunya sahur itu. jadilah gw hajar nggak tdr sampe jam 4.. setelah sahur dan mau tidur, adooh nggak bisa tiduurr. gubrak-gubruk bolak balik badan ke kiri kanan, tetep aja gabisa tidur. akhirnya jam stgh 5 pagi gw nyalain laptop, chatting2 sama dede sampe jam stgh 6. tapi abis itu teteeepp masih blm ngantukk, dan gw bener2 bisa tidur tuh jam 6 lebih gitu, udh subuh, suara burung2 berkicau juga udh kedengeran... padahal tadi pagi ada meeting jam 10 jadi hrs bgn jam 8. jadilah pagi ini cuma tdr 2 jam, dan pas gw berangkat ke curtin jg mukanya yg masih ngantuk2 gitu. uuhh buka mata susah bgt rasanya!

tadinya selesai meeting gw mau ke city sama dayu, tapi kata dia sorean aja soalnya dia baru bangun. yaudah gw pulang dan berusaha ngelanjutin tdr gw doong. jam 1 smp jam stgh 3 gw tidur, trus kebangun dan gabisa tidur2 lagi. malah kepala jadi pusing. kali ini gw ngantuk tp tetep gabisa tidur :( huaaah rasanya keseeellll... kenapa sih tidur aja susaah. padahal gw paling suka tidur !

akhirnya gw keluar kamar jam 6, menyiapkan buka puasa dan sekarang blogging sambil nonton tv, sambil terkantuk2 tentunya... huhuhu..

I Got Tagged ?!

I got tagged by mayapantad! ehhehehe.. Don't really understand the purpose of tagging and being tagged, tho.. So let's have a look at the following tagged rules:

• Each blogger must post these rules.
• Each blogger starts with eight random facts / habits about themselves.
• Blogger that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
• Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog.

ready? lets get started..

i'm too easily influenced by others

namanya juga anak muda kali ya? pokoknya gw gampang bgt terpengaruh sama omongan orang. misalnya, gw harus memilih antara 2 hal. walaupun gw sreg sama A, tapi kalo orang lain bilang B, gw pasti bakal goyah sama pendirian gw sebelumnya. taoi untungnya ya untuk hal2 kecil aja sih gw kepengaruh... kalo udh urusan yg penting dan masalahnya besar, gw lebih percaya pendapat gw sendiri doong..

gw suka ngupil

entah kenapa menurut gw ngupil itu enak bgt dan bikin lega. hahaha.. bukannya jorok ya. tapi kan tujuan dari ngupil itu sendiri ya ngebersihin hidung kita toh? bahkan saking seringnya ngupil, gw sampe suka kecewa kalo udh merogoh2 ke dalem hidung tapi ternyata tdk ada lagi satupun upil tertinggal di dalemnya. uughh..

i always want to be loved and to be cared about

yah namanya juga perempuan ya kaann? gw suka kl ada orang yg menyayangi dan memperhatikan gw secara obvious. maksudnya, bener2 nunjukin kl mereka itu sayang dan perhatian sm gw. misalnya nyokap yg rajin menanyakan kabar gw setiap hari dan selalu bilang 'i love you' di akhir sms nya. rasanya senang diperlakukan seperti itu. tp gw juga gampang bgt sedih kl org yg gw perhatiin dan gw sayangin nggak memperlakukan gw secara begitu juga. sayang, ternyata nggak semua org sadar kl itu penting buat gw.. perhatian itu kan bisa ditunjukin lewat hal2 kecil. the simplest things ya sekedar sms atau telf. itu aja itu udh sangat2 berarti kok, tanpa mereka harus melakukan segala keromantisan yg gombal bombay. tp ya itulah, org yg gw harapkan bisa memperlakukan gw begitu (dan jelas2 dia tau gw pengen diperlakukan begitu), malah nggak pernah nunjukin perhatian sperti itu.. *sigh*

i'm a big spender

kalo lagi pengen sesuatu, biasanya gw nggak pikir panjang sebelum membeli barang itu. entah itu baju, atau buku, atau apapun.. uuh. rasanya ini bener2 harus diubah deh yaa.. kadang2 saking ngidamnya sama sesuatu barang, gw beli aja tanpa tau kegunaannya. dan end up nya sih barang itu cuma dipake sekali - dua kali dan ditaro di ujung lemari aja sesudahnya.

i'm a heavy sleeper

hahaha entah kenapa gw suka banget tidur. rasanya nikmat beneerrr kalo udh ketemu bantal dan tdr dgn nyamannya di bawah selimut! trus besokannya pasti nggak bangun2 dan gw selalu tidur lebih dari 8 jam sehari lho! hueheheeehe..

i'm such a crybaby ToT

gw gampang bgt nangis untuk hal2 yg nggak penting, terutama kl lagi ntn film. ya ampuun, kadang malah nangisnya lebih heboh dariapda actor nya! abis kayaknya kl liat kehidupan orang lain yg menyentuh tuh rasanya gimanaaa gitu, jd pengen ikutan nangis juga.. kl lagi punya masalah juga, biasanya gw gampang sekali nangis. capek juga sih ngelurain aer mata untuk hal2 nggak penting. tapi somehow the tears rolling down my cheek so easily i can't even control it..

gw suka jutek

sebenernya sih nggak bermaksud pasang tampang jutek atau nyebelin lho ya. tapi kalo perasaan hati lagi kesel dan nggak enak, rasanya susah bgt buat nutup2in. ditambah pula, pada dasarnya muka gw udh jutek, lagi diem dan nggak bete pun keliatannya cemberut, hehe..

i have a very short term memory

ini nih yang gw sebeell. entah kenapa deh rasanya kok gampang bgt lupa sama hal2 penting, misalnya lupa naro kunci dimana, lupa hari ini tgl berapa, lupa hari2 ultah temen uuhh.. serem nih masih muda udh pikun, gmn tua nya nanti??

Orang-orang yg gw tag adalah semua org yg baca blog ini deh, especially Adi, Wendy, Mira, Mendi, dll. enjoy :)

Ratatouille.

FINALLY!

huaahhh, setelah lebih dari sebulan begging2 ke dede untuk ntn film ini, akhirnya kesampean juga walopun udh agak basi sih ya? hehehe gapapaa yg penting sekarang udh puasss!

nggak nyesel, ternyata emang bagus bgt.. lucu.. salute for Pixar and Walt Disney Pictures for successfully delivering an original-extraordinary story through an incredibly great animation pictures..

gambarnya halus dan real banget, emang ya teknologi cartoon jaman sekarang,

nggak bisa disamain sama cartoon2 Walt Disney jaman dulu

kayak Lion King etc.

baguuss.. Ratatouille ini menurut gw film kartun kedua terbaik setelah The Incredibles

(juga bikinannya Pixar and Walt Disney).

Kereenn. I like it I like itt :)

Dapet 4 bintang deh!

We Saw the Rainbow..

on the way to Toys R Us, we saw this beautiful rainbow when we were on Shepperton Rd..

*keliatan jelas nggak rainbow nya?*

keren keren kereeennn..

FREEE !

Curtin has been very nice by letting us have a tuition free week - a week free from classes and lectures, yay ! we have heaps of assignments which due after the break, though.. so i guess this week i'll have one or two group meetings and have to finish some part of my assignments..

However, me and dede has planned many things to do during the break, hoho. We gotta go to Toys R Us (see how childish he is? hehehe..), Hoyts cinema to watch 2 movies at least, Ikea (maybe), breaking our fast with potuguese chicken from Charcoal Chicken, and he's gonna be a plumber for a while to set-up the toilet shower in my house..

And for next week, i think i really wanna go to Perth Royal Show since Indonesia is being the guest nation for this annual event. I wanna know what are they going to promote about Indonesian, and am very excited to watch Guruh Soekarno Putra's dancer team to perform our traditional dance.. Plus, i've never been to PRS before.

What am I gonna do now? I have to prepare my presentation about Wesfarmers, searching on Australian hospitality industry background, doing advertising project, and so on.. heheeee.. menyebalkaaann...

The Wedding Planner.

Hehe, tadi iseng2 buka www.weddingku.com, ya ampuunn.. saking informative nya tuh website sampe bikin gw jadi nggak sabar pengen nikahan.. semua lengkap deh, mau cari apa aja tentang wedding pasti ada disitu :)

dan akhirnya gw jadi ngitung2 kira2 buat kawinan itu perlu berapa sih? dan hasilnya adalaahh.. *eng ing eng...* 40 juta untuk 500 undangan sajaa.. mahal ya. itu juga udh yg minimal lho.. udh termasuk venue, catering, documentary, kebaya, souvenir dan invitation. blm lagi make up artist nya, trus kl ada upacara2 jawa seperti siraman dan midodareni atau apalah itu namanya (secara gw org jawa ya kan..), pasti bisa smp 50 juta lebih..

itu sekarang, nanti jamannya gw bener2 mau nikah pasti rate nya udh lebih mahal daripada itu.. huhuhu.. nabung dari sekarang ah.. hehehe. groom nya siapa sih itu urusan nanti yaa, dikasih jodohnya siapa dan kapan, tapi kl saving money dan planning ini-itu buat wedding impian, boleh dari sekarang doong? hehehe.. terlalu muluk2 juga nih impian gw.

teruuss, tadi gw juga liat foto2 wedding candid, baguus-bagus bangett. hebat ya fotografernya pada bisa aja dapet ekspresi natural pengantin (plus keluarga pengantin), yg segitu bagusnya.. salute !

kalo mau ngomongin soal pernikahan impian sih gw pengennya yg private, simple, dan classy. trus kalo bisa resepsi nya garden party gt, dimana gw sama si calon suami bisa berbaur sama semua tamu2nya dan ngerasa deket sama mereka semua (much2 better kan daripada ngundang 1000 orang tapi pas salaman kita sendiri bingung 'ini siapa ya?').. tapi yaah, orang tua kami kan pasti jg pengen mengundang temen2 mereka toh? impian punya private party udh nggak mungkin terwujud deh.. gapapa asal semua pihak senang..

dari hasil research (ciee), 2 venue favorit gw adalah Hotel Manhattan di Casablanca, sama Hotel AliLa nggak tau dimana, hehe. tp kl disitu udh sepaket sama cateringnya.. jadi mungkin sebaiknya di Balai Sudirman aja yg deket rumah, hahahha... gw pernah masuk sih ke dlmnya, lumayan gede juga kok, bangunannya juga bagus ;)

aahhh nggak sabar nggak sabaarrr... I WANNA GET MARRIED SOON ....

tapi setelah research ini dan itu, semangat ngitung2 budget buat ini-itu, tiba2 gw mikir "eh eh, kl org udh nikah, bisa bosen nggak ya? bangun tdr, mau tdr, sama org yg sama.. udh gt kl gw gak bisa jd istri yg bener, misalnya gabisa masak, trus suami gw minta divorce, gimanaa??"

DUENG!

baru ngeh deh gw kl hakekat dari pernikahan itu sendiri (wuahahah..) jauuuhh lebih complicated daripada sekedar mempersiapkan pestanya.. yasudah, abis itu jadi nggak semangat lagi gw browsingnya, hahaha.. hmmph, umur gw sekarang 20 thn, pengen nikah umur 23 (walopun kecil kemungkinan gw nikah umur segini sih..), punya anak umur 25, have a very wonderful family and live happily ever after.. live happily ever after with my loved ones. that's what i really want :) and i don't bother about my (to-be) wedding party anymore..

killing the time.

hehe, i have lots of things to do though.. i haven't finish my tute excercise which is due tomorrow, i haven't touched my advertising project, and i haven't started working on my presentation for the week after tuition free week.

so what do i do now? i'm waayy more interested in blogging than working on my homeworks. why do i like blogging so much i don't mind spending hours watching the screen and punching the keyboard? i don't know.. i'm quite wondering myself because all i know is, i'm not good at writing.. i always find it hard to express my feeling with words, to create something that can be enjoyed by the readers..

maybe i should start with letting you to get to know me better. well.. i don't know how to start. okay, my name is dita. i'm so lucky to have a wonderful family, beautiful friends and a lovable boyfriend. i have one brother, a year younger than me, whose currently living in brisbane. i miss him very very much cause we haven't met for more than a half year ! and it will take another 1 year for us to meet, i guess *sigh*.. back to the old days, we were always fighting and arguing when we were kids.. we fought over something silly, and argued over anything stupid and not worth arguing at all.. haha, and i have to admit that i hated him very much! but not now.. now i really missed himmm..

my parents are living in jakarta now and i can't imagine how lonely they have been since me and my brother went study overseas. aah i miss you both mum, dad.. i'll be there in months, just wait, okay??

and i have this lovable bf for 1,5 year (including 2 months of breaking up, hehe).its not that we're having an on-off relationship, just there was a point when he didn't think we're having a 'healthy' relationship.. so we broke up. and now we start it all over again.. i'm happily attach to him, i must say :) but i won't expect too much from this anymore. just see what's gonna happen next..

emm, i don't really get a long well with new people. i don't know why i always feel awkward to abe around them.. maybe that's why i don't have so many friends. its not that i don't want to make friends with new people, it just takes time for me to really show them who i really am *cieee..* but its truuee..

gotta go to work now, byee...